i dun wna lose u...

im not brave.. i dont dare to confess my feelings for her(not les la!)
im making use of my blog to write out my thoughts..
and im not making any of this up! its all fkin true.
im wondering, is it too late to make up for all that i've done...?

seriously, i feel like cryin now. im tryin my best to hold my tears
i noe my life aint perfect, but whose life is?
but my friends cover up all my imperfections,
i love all of them, i do.
but do u know, my besties are the ones i love most, without ranking
coz all of my besties are loved equally
mayb u just dont feel lik u are treated equally thats y u are lik this?
mayb u feel neglected??! pls! tell me how u feel..,
i dont care if it is gonna hurt my feelings, JUST TELL ME HOW U FEEL!! do u hate me so much?!

recently, ive been noticin this,
we are driftin more n more apart...
we hardly talk in msn, n neither are we smsin each other...
i noe u read my blog, but u just dont tag to tell me that u are here.
i noe how much u are disgusted by all my gans n everything,
i dont blame u, i seriously DONT.
but im sorry to say , i wont leave them either,
coz they are precious to me, really.
and u are precious too! im not kidding.
i noe all that you always try to keep me from strayin away ..
n not to mix with the wrong company..
n u used to b there always givin me advice for everything.
n u were always there standin up for me...
i apprecate it loads for all that u've done for me.

i feel heartbroken, i deserve it..
coz of my actions, mayb u were hurt by me..
im rly rly rly sorry for everything, i hope u will see this n reply...

this post is just specially for u.. ily n imy bestie!
thanks for being there for me everytime
n to the person reading this, if u think u are this person,
tag/sms/call/msn me ASAP!
pls.. ty.. i dun wna lose another important friend.
im sorry i found out late, i dun wanna see u walk away...
its driving me i n s a n e.
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lets just face the fact that
many friends are drifting apart from me,
this is my worst nightmare!
pls pls pls, wadever evil thing i did, i sincerely apologize!
n pls dun keep all ur feelings to urself, tell me the truth how u feel!

examples from those recent ones :
1) the person i mentioned above, nt revealing who, go figure!
2)hafiy <-- did i scold u or irritate u? thats y u never talk, sry la boy 2)jolyn koh <-- mayb u just dun lik who i am, thats fine wit me, or isit the kenny thing? coz i called him gay? or u think i wan qiang ta? or isit going ur hse thing? im pretty sorry if i disturbed u or irritate u by this, or isit audition? i come ur hse too many times to play audi?(i was despo) or isit i disturbed u when u play audi? still gt alot of posibilities, i lazy to list le..=.= MAIN POINT : WHATEVER THE REASON, PLS TELL ME !
ok good mornin, i go sleep le, now 3.11 am le ..zzz